Just a cup

Just a cup

God has been revealing something to me and I thought I would share. Since “working” for God or fulfilling my purpose in this life, I have found that the average person you come in contact with would like to give me at least some of the glory for whatever God is doing through me. I have learned through the scriptures that God receives the glory and that we are merely the vessels. But, when I or any other in this position tries to explain it, it’s hard to convey.

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

Romans 8″28

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

Acts 26:16

But rise and stand upon your feet, for I have appeared to you for this purpose, to appoint you as a servant and witness to the things in which you have seen me and to those in which I will appear to you,

I have a dear friend and sister in Christ who received a revelation from God. She called me and explained to me that God had shown her (I am paraphrasing of course) herself sitting at a potter’s wheel making a coffee cup, she made it so beautifully and precise specifically for the purpose of using to drink her morning coffee. When she was done with it, she poured a cup of coffee and was glad about what she had made. But, the coffee cup turned to her and said I do not want coffee in me. The coffee cup went on to say it would much rather hold flowers. It demanded to be sat in the windowsill with beautiful flowers in it. I was so intrigued by this revelation she had and allowed me to look at God in a different light and more importantly looked at myself and all of God’s creation in a different light. As He formed us out of the dirt slowly and carefully and then breathed life into us for His purposes.

So, back to my first paragraph. The mail man everyday delivers mail from all over the world to it’s intended recipient. One day you receive a letter from a King with wonderful news about who you are, where your going and what God’s purposes are for you. Would you fall all over the mail man? Of course not, he was only the messenger. You are thankful to the king and praise Him and love Him for showing you what you needed to see.

I believe we need to re focus on who and what is important there is only one who deserves all the praise and glory, the one who hung on a cross and bore the weight of God’s wrath, that was rightfully ours.

Don’t allow yourself to get caught up in messengers. Aspire to live like they do, but make sure only the son of God gets your praise and glory. Jesus Christ- The way the life and the truth ❤

John 3:28
You yourselves are my witnesses [you personally bear me out] that I stated, I am not the Christ (the Anointed One, the Messiah), but I have [only] been sent before Him [in advance of Him, to be His appointed forerunner, His messenger, His announcer].

Romans 1:1
FROM PAUL, a bond servant of Jesus Christ (the Messiah) called to be an apostle, (a special messenger) set apart to [preach] the Gospel (good news) of and from God,

Ephesians 2:8-9 says, “For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast

John chapter 3 Verses 13-16, “And no man hath ascended up to heaven, but He that came down from heaven, even the Son of man which is in heaven. And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up: That whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”

The Keys to the Kingdom

Old keys on a old book, antique wood background

I have heard so often that we need to be living the kingdom lifestyle. When Jesus walked the earth He told the disciples the kingdom of God was at hand. I have always been intrigued at this notion and knew I wanted it, the kingdom that is. I wanted to live like this. I even created a Kingdom living Pintrest board, although there is not much on it considering that I wasn’t actually sure of what kingdom living was. Kind of like a kid telling his mom he wants to drive a firetruck, he draws pictures of firetrucks and dresses up like a fireman but doesn’t actually know how to drive it. So this is me, wanting a longing for something big red and shiny, but not sure how it will happen or maybe not even fully understanding what it is.

Let’s step back to the beginning of my walk, previous blogs will show that the Lord poured out a good dose of the ghost on my life. I was having dreams, speaking prophetic words of wisdom to people and much more. Then as soon as it had come I stepped into a dry season. I pray daily for God to use me like he had done before. Take me to new levels. Maybe I was too ambitious and really got on his nerves…lol I can do that. Sometimes I get on my own nerves with my anxiousness, of the “what next Lord”. So of course the enemy steps in and has a field day with me. Filling my mind with lies. Even though I am holding fast to God, I am getting worn down by the constant barrage of disappointment and waiting, which was never my strong suit.

The last few days the Lord is showing me some things, I am just starting to latch on to it. Insert mental image of baby so hungry that even though the bottle is in her mouth she can’t seem to suck any milk out. God has shown me some phrases.

1. Prophet

2. Keys to Kingdom

3. Intercessor

My boss who can be a man of few words and quite frankly I think, thinks I am a little cooky at times, told me about my gift with the prophetic. For some reason hearing it from him made it stick.

I bought a book months ago, that I just picked up to read, it speaks of kingdom authority, using the keys to access all that God has to offer.

My Pastor started a series of sermons on sonship and realizing who we are in Christ and that we as the body of Christ have to stop living with an orphan mentality.( We have no power, feeling defeated, not accessing our potential)

My dear friend  tags me in a post that leads me to read about kingdom living, prophets, and leading.

2 weeks ago God led me to intense intercession for the first time. I thought I was going to explode. A dear friend calls me after I had been suffering for days no eating, no sleeping, I relay to her what I am feeling and she says, “your being called to intercede”. I’m like how???? she said you have to let it out, wail, weep, scream. I was so afraid. I do not like to feel out of control, and this feeling I had inside was so intense I was afraid to let it go, but like when your sick and you know you have to throw up, and you fight it, but ultimately you know you are not going to feel better until you just do it. Yup, that was exactly how it felt. I prayed and asked God to keep everyone out of the house. My husband will think I have gone over the edge and my kids will be scared. He did just that. I wailed for 45 minutes, I groaned from the deepest parts of me. It was the pain of Jesus’s heart for this lost world, I keenly knew it as I cried and wept.

Little conversation with God~

Okay so what now Lord? What does all this mean? Am I going to start living the kingdom life? How do I get in? God is telling me I already have the keys and that I am standing at the door. He told me I have had the keys all along. But, I argue I have prayed Lord for you to show me the way, to pour out like you have done before……wait for it, but nothing has happened. He continues to tell me, you have it already. Okay Lord, but I apparently don’t know how to use the keys to open the door, I am truly at a loss. I am still patiently awaiting him to show me how to get in, even though I already have the keys, I don’t know how to use them.

But, I know my God is for me, and that He has plans and purposes for my life. I will stay in prayer and patiently wait for Him to let me in. Or to show me how to use the keys.

Spoon Fed

babyWalkingSpoon Fed

Just when I think I  won’t be getting another bite, God gives me another spoon full. I liken spiritual growth to being spoon fed by the master, our father. I mean think about it. When we receive salvation we are like babies again, we are re learning everything. We are learning everything in a spiritual way not a physical way. It’s a new life. So, like a baby God spoons feeds us little bites just like we do when we have a new baby. We don’t introduce steak at  3 months old, we start with milk and baby food.

                                                                             1 Corinthians 3:2

I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not yet ready for it. Indeed, you are still not ready

 John 3:3

                   Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God.

So along those lines, God has given me glimpses of things but in small bites. One of the things that He has recently revealed by no will of my own but only through His will is a deeper revelation about numbers. I had written in a post last year about seeing the #44 and how God would use it to wink at me but also it had many significant meanings in the bible( https://msinop1.wordpress.com/2013/11/12/speaking-without-words/.)  The Bible in Hebrew and Greek also in English all have numbers that correspond to each letter. So, with deeper insight of the divine it is more clear that every thing God does in the bible is backed up by numbers, which further shows His sovereignty and gives “the Bible is error because man wrote it theory” out the window. No man could have written this. It is God inspired. A few weeks ago I came across a video that blew my socks off. It was a man who had basically been taught by the spirit to understand this number backed wording of the bible to the 10th degree. I watched it several times and marveled a the deeper revelation God was showing me through this video. God does not just offer us salvation and that leave it at that until we die. He desires to have a deeper relationship with us, so that we can grow our spirit man, the new life in Christ passed infancy. When we desire and seek this, in His time He will spoon feed us deeper knowledge of who He is. It is a journey that is both exciting and risky, it takes us outside of our comfort zone; the comforts of the natural world and reasoning that we are accustomed to.

Think about all of the characters in the Bible. Our biblical heroes, the ones God gave us to learn from including Jesus. They were often called if not ALWAYS called to step out into a realm of “the unknown” as far as their earthly experience had taught them.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rNuQbHC-52c “44 DNA”

http://www.gods-kingdom-ministries.net/daily-weblogs/2011/10-2011/the-biblical-meaning-of-44/#.VIXXw2qMs5Y.facebook

Seek and you shall find. If you are ready for solid food ask the Lord to lead you to a deeper relationship, a growth spurt if you will.

Sugar High

pleasing god

A few months ago I was out with friends to dinner. We ate and talked and had a nice time. It was a typical mommy night out, finishing up with a trip to Wal-Mart. As we were meandering around Wal-Mart with no children to distract us, I word popped into my head. You know that God nudging thing. lol. The word was ketoacidosis. I knew I had heard the word before, but couldn’t recall what it meant. I tried to blow it off, but it kept coming back to me over and over again. We headed back to the car and I said to my friend can you look that up. She did and proceeded to read me the definition.

Diabetic ketoacidosis (DKA) is a life-threatening condition that develops when cells in the body are unable to get the sugar (glucose) they need for energy because there is not enough insulin.

When the sugar cannot get into the cells, it stays in the blood. The kidneys filter some of the sugar from the blood and remove it from the body through urine.   http://www.webmd.com/diabetes/tc/diabetic-ketoacidosis-dka-topic-overview

I couldn’t figure out for the life of me what this could mean. I came home and wrote it in my journal.

I kind of forgot about it. But, this morning it dawned on me that within the past few weeks 3 people that I know died of Diabetes related complications. They had all been sick and all suffered so much.

I thought to myself well there is no such thing as coincidence. So I started to speak to God. I asked Him what does this mean? I don’t understand? I then made a phone call to a friend that was with me that day out to dinner and shopping. I related to her that I had put these two instances together, and did she have any insight to what it could mean. She felt it was a warning to me. We got off the phone and I again went to prayer.I have written before about the weakness everyone in my family has with food. I started to ask God is this about me? I had a full fledged conversation with Him.

I felt this was directly related to how much sugar I eat. That I am showing my girls how to live rightly through my actions in all other aspects, except when it comes to eating habits.

I immediately said to Him; Are you telling me I have to give up sugar? I don’t think I can do that. He reminded me of other great hurdles that I had said the same thing about, and showed me I how I had overcome them. I immediately went to the kitchen and made 2 frozen waffles covered in bananas and syrup. It was an act of defiance, I knew it but couldn’t stop myself. Or I didn’t want to stop myself.

He again convicted me and said this is not something you can avoid, I am asking you to do this for me. He then reminded me of something I had just written on Facebook the day before.

Are you interruptable? God often gives us unexpected blessings, on roads we never planned on traveling. ‪#‎trustgod‬ ‪#‎rejoicealways‬ ‪#‎Iaminterruptableareyou

 I thought I absolutely never planned on traveling a road of strict eating habits. Then I followed it up with but I love food sooo much . How could you take it away? My pure enjoyment? Then I relented, you will bless me on this road I didn’t plan on traveling. The ripple effect of my obedience will bless others? Hmmm that would be good I guess………..

In the midst of all this I knew I had to tell some one who could hold me accountable, but I so  did not want to tell anyone, then they will hold me accountable.

My friend called and I knew I had to tell her. She reminded me of how God asked Abraham to sacrifice his sons life on the altar in obedience. What a tough sacrifice that was, but God knew that Abraham would do it, even though he didn’t want to and great things developed from the obedience, the great inheritance.

I don’t want to do this, but my desire to please God is greater than my fleshly desires.

Borders and Boundaries

boundaries

This seems to be a popular theme right now in the news. Also, a re occurring theme in my life.

The headlines as of late have been focusing greatly on the border crisis this great country is facing. Borders that are being infiltrated by a loop hole in the laws and or system that are allowing children without parents to travel over the border’s and subsequently being wards of the state. It is a truly sad situation and I cannot imagine the toll it is taking on the border states, the children and the parents.

border-crisis

Yet, we do have “Borders” for good reason. These lines are set to separate states and countries and each of the governing bodies. To eliminate mass chaos and add order not only to the states and countries but ultimately to lives. Can you imagine an earth with no borders?

Riots

We have the same sort of rules when it comes to boundaries in our lives. If we do not have set boundaries for our relationships, our kids, our marriage, our ministries. There will be mass chaos.

I have run into this personally, especially since embarking on this life in Christ. I want to help and I want to lead, I want to be Christ like. Yet, I continue to run into these jams. Jams that are caused by yours truly, because I have not set boundaries where they needed to be. It not only ultimately hurts me but also the people that I have allowed to cross invisible boundaries lines that were never drawn.

I have researched the matter and also have read up on what is biblically sound since this is always the place where ultimate truth lies.

Here is an excerpt from a article I read on the biblical view of boundary setting.

(http://tolovehonorandvacuum.com/2014/07/setting-healthy-boundaries/)

Here’s Galatians 6:2-7, which talks about boundaries:

2 Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. 3 If anyone thinks they are something when they are not, they deceive themselves. 4 Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else, 5 for each one should carry their own load. 6 Nevertheless, the one who receives instruction in the word should share all good things with their instructor. 7 Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.

We’re supposed to carry each other’s burdens, but we’re also supposed to carry our own loads. Think of a load as something which is manageable–your daily to-do list. But when something out of the blue hits someone that they can’t handle themselves, then we’re supposed to help them. We aren’t supposed to carry each other’s loads–only their burdens. And you won’t be able to help someone with their burdens if you’re simultaneously trying to carry your family’s loads.

Here’s something else about boundaries: we’re not supposed to compare ourselves to others, and we’re not supposed to worry about other’s opinions. We need to test our own actions, and only rely on God. And finally, and perhaps most importantly,

A man reaps what he sows.

God set up the world so that our actions have consequences, and we are supposed to bear those consequences. If you take responsibility for things that aren’t yours–by not having boundaries, for instance–you put a roadblock into one of God’s best teaching instruments He has for His children. Let’s say your husband is prone to rages. He’s sowing discord and anger. But if you and the kids walk on tiptoes around him, trying to placate him, and then when he does yell, you apologize and try to repair the relationship, you’re the ones who are reaping that discord, not him.

We aren’t to carry each other’s loads, and we’re supposed to let people bear the consequences of their actions. We are each responsible for our own stuff.

This helped me to understand that their needs to be healthy boundaries set in relationships, that enable both parties to share in the fruits of the relationship that can only be borne of right standing.

Best friend

Also, it is important to remember that we have a place in the body of Christ. Christ is the head and should always be our right hand. I think without boundaries it is easy to replace that right hand with a person instead of the God head. Here is a devotion sent to me by a good friend on this subject.

My Right-Hand Man
CINDI MCMENAMIN

“I have set the LORD continually before me; Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.” Psalm 16:8 (NASB)

I sat on the floor and cried. I felt overwhelmed and so alone.

“Who is going to help me now, Lord?” I whispered.

My assistant and close friend had just informed me she was no longer able to partner with me in my ministry. Circumstances beyond her control made it impossible for her to continue to work alongside me as someone I depended on. No longer there to help me. No longer there to be my sounding board, my prayer support, my “other half” in a very real sense.

I felt like I was losing my right hand.

Have you ever felt that way? As if you are suddenly on your own, without anyone to hold you up?

And yet, God had something He wanted me to learn in that difficult moment.

Just hours earlier, I had spoken to a group of women about the seasons of our lives in which we need to be pruned. I gave the example of how rosebushes need to be pruned. They look choppy after the pruning, but come spring, the roses bloom brighter and more beautifully than ever.

But here I was, being pruned in my own life, and feeling like I was losing my right hand!

God, this doesn’t feel like pruning, I prayed. This feels like my right hand is being chopped off! Please God, not her. She’s all I have right now. Please don’t take my right hand.

Desperate for God’s presence and His comfort, I reached for my Bible. Not knowing where else to turn, I opened to the Psalms. Years earlier, my cousin had shared how Psalm 16 comforted her when it came to experiencing loss in her family. I read the Psalm aloud and stopped suddenly after reading verse 8:

I have set the LORD continually before me;
Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.”

Lord, I prayed, I’m complaining I’ve lost my right hand, but You are my right hand. You are the One who helps me, counsels me, encourages me. You are the One who never leaves my side.

Dear God, I’m so sorry I didn’t see it before. You truly are my Right-hand Man.

I read through the rest of Psalm 16, and smiled at how it ended:

“You will make known to me the path of life; In your presence is fullness of joy; In your right hand are pleasures forever,” (Psalm 16:11, NASB).

God was telling me, in my moment of fear and anxiety, that not only was I not alone, but I never would be. Even without my friend to help me. With God at my right hand, there is joy in His presence and pleasures forevermore.

I realized that day there is no one else I would rather have at my right hand.

I got up off the floor and walked out of the room with my Bible in my hand, my head held high and my Right-hand Man at my side.

I have never walked alone in this job yet, I thought to myself. And I never will.

Dear Lord, on those days when I feel cut off from help, encouragement, or support, help me to remember You are the One who is at my right hand. Thank You for being the One who helps me, counsels me and encourages me. Because of Your stability I will never be shaken … and I will never walk alone. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

TRUTH FOR TODAY:
Isaiah 41:10, “‘Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.'” (NASB)

Psalm 18:35, “You have also given me the shield of Your salvation, And Your right hand upholds me; And Your gentleness makes me great.” (NASB)

We HAVE to set healthy boundaries in our lives. The enemy is circling about waiting for that boundary to be crossed, so that we may be attacked.

The people in your life that are meant to be there will respect the boundaries you have set. Also, you will be setting a good example to them, and we may all become better imitators of Christ Jesus. Often others will be angry, and resentful of the boundaries. Maybe that is God’s way of weeding the people out of our lives that aren’t meant to be there. For everything there is a season. Hopefully with time they will also see the good that comes from boundaries and right standing.

Titus 2:7-8New International Version (NIV)

7 In everything set them an example by doing what is good. In your teaching show integrity, seriousness 8 and soundness of speech that cannot be condemned, so that those who oppose you may be ashamed because they have nothing bad to say about us.

I hope to convey with love the need to be safe in the confines of biblical boundaries so as to all we do can be all the God has predestined for our lives.

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Discouraged

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Series- A Journey Back- Part 1 Childhood abuse

So, I did a taping this morning for the YouTube channel. This one is probably the heaviest one I have done so far. We ended up breaking it into 4 parts. So, it will be a series. It is a story about mental, physical, and sexual abuse, abandonment, rejection, and pain. In the midst of the unthinkable this woman is brought into healing by a loving God. Most of us cannot fathom ever being able to heal, much less forgive the unspeakable things that happened to her. She is anonymous in this video. She is in the ending stages of writing a biography of her life called “A Journey Back”. This woman has a testimony you won’t soon forget, and God is going to use her story and life, to heal the souls and hearts of many ❤

Throne of Lies

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