Spoon Fed

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Just when I think I  won’t be getting another bite, God gives me another spoon full. I liken spiritual growth to being spoon fed by the master, our father. I mean think about it. When we receive salvation we are like babies again, we are re learning everything. We are learning everything in a spiritual way not a physical way. It’s a new life. So, like a baby God spoons feeds us little bites just like we do when we have a new baby. We don’t introduce steak at  3 months old, we start with milk and baby food.

                                                                             1 Corinthians 3:2

I gave you milk, not solid food, for you were not yet ready for it. Indeed, you are still not ready

 John 3:3

                   Jesus answered him, “Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born again he cannot see the kingdom of God.

So along those lines, God has given me glimpses of things but in small bites. One of the things that He has recently revealed by no will of my own but only through His will is a deeper revelation about numbers. I had written in a post last year about seeing the #44 and how God would use it to wink at me but also it had many significant meanings in the bible( https://msinop1.wordpress.com/2013/11/12/speaking-without-words/.)  The Bible in Hebrew and Greek also in English all have numbers that correspond to each letter. So, with deeper insight of the divine it is more clear that every thing God does in the bible is backed up by numbers, which further shows His sovereignty and gives “the Bible is error because man wrote it theory” out the window. No man could have written this. It is God inspired. A few weeks ago I came across a video that blew my socks off. It was a man who had basically been taught by the spirit to understand this number backed wording of the bible to the 10th degree. I watched it several times and marveled a the deeper revelation God was showing me through this video. God does not just offer us salvation and that leave it at that until we die. He desires to have a deeper relationship with us, so that we can grow our spirit man, the new life in Christ passed infancy. When we desire and seek this, in His time He will spoon feed us deeper knowledge of who He is. It is a journey that is both exciting and risky, it takes us outside of our comfort zone; the comforts of the natural world and reasoning that we are accustomed to.

Think about all of the characters in the Bible. Our biblical heroes, the ones God gave us to learn from including Jesus. They were often called if not ALWAYS called to step out into a realm of “the unknown” as far as their earthly experience had taught them.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rNuQbHC-52c “44 DNA”

http://www.gods-kingdom-ministries.net/daily-weblogs/2011/10-2011/the-biblical-meaning-of-44/#.VIXXw2qMs5Y.facebook

Seek and you shall find. If you are ready for solid food ask the Lord to lead you to a deeper relationship, a growth spurt if you will.

Discouraged

Discouraged

I don’t know exactly how it happened. I really don’t. Some how it got a hold of me and won’t let go. I am in the pit. Satan is a LIAR! He is tormenting me, and telling me I am … Continue reading

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Great Question

Great Question

Will the sins we were forgiven for be judged? If He remembers our sins no more, what sin to be judged? As I was asked this question this morning from a friend. I pondered it. What a great question, one … Continue reading

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********Celebrate********

********Celebrate********

Live life in such a way, that when you enter into death, everyone celebrates instead of mourns. You may be thinking, how can I celebrate when some one dies? When you are following Christ, loving Him, and living for Him … Continue reading

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Sunshine Award  “light up the dark corners of our minds”

Sunshine Award “light up the dark corners of our minds”

What a blessing it is to know that the fellow bloggers who inspire me, feel the same. Thank you to natashlim73.wordpress.com for giving this award. My salvation is sealed, and I am so thankful for what Christ did for me. … Continue reading

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Holy, Holy, Holy

Holy, Holy, Holy

Often, I hear people say, “If God is a loving God, why would He send people to Hell”? Also, “I’m a “good person” and give to charities if God’s gonna send me to Hell for being a good person, well … Continue reading

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I am Restless

I am in a funk… A stalemate.. Writer’s block…Jesus block… Restless…

Oh how I hate feeling like this. Struggling to feel, smell, sense God presence, but it alludes me.

Since last week I am just depleted. The rhetoric of war, weary from the nay sayers, hurting for the persecuted. Hurting so deep inside that my heart is being squeezed. Desperate for clarity and vision to see the ones that I love saved, just to give me an ounce of piece of mind. Hurting for the cancer ridden, drug addicted, grieving parents, grieving children.

Sadness surrounds me at every turn in every possible way it can possibly take form. “Marty, you can’t save the world”, “Why are you heartsick over another broken family”? “There’s nothing you can do to change it”.

Logically I know all these things, yes, I understand that I cannot save the world, but yet my heart aches, I feel helpless. I believe in the power of prayer, I believe our Lord can deliver, but is it HIS WILL to deliver every soul that I pray for? I am sure not. I’m sure this is where Satan (I hate that spellcheck makes me capitalize his name he doesn’t deserve it) plays on my emotions, and on my mind. He whispers in my ear, “What makes you think your prayers go anywhere”, Do you know how many people are suffering in the world? Don’t waste your breath”, “Marty, maybe your families next”. “Is this all really worth it Marty? This God you can’t see? Is he worth losing family and friends”?

Satan is constantly playing on my mind, and although I am down, I am NOT OUT! I will be darned if I allow him to do this to me. To worry, to second guess, to feel useless, and restless.

I am truly restless for peace, for unconditional love, that is only found somewhere other than this world. I am restless for abounding grace, no pain, no fear, safety, certainty.

Lord, I beg you to let me feel your presence again, even a week without it, can make me go mad. Lord, I pray that you fill my heart back up with joy, peace and thanksgiving. Lord, I ask you to send your warring angels to come and surround me so that the enemy will flee.

My friend posted this yesterday on her facebook page, and it brought me some peace.

“…the great thing to remember is that, though our feelings come and go, His love for us does not. It is not wearied by our sins, or our indifference; and, therefore, it is quite relentless in its determination that we shall be cured of those sins, at whatever cost to us, at whatever cost to Him.”

~ Mere Christianity

On the Verge

On the Verge

I thought this quote was very apropos. Especially “God sovereignty is first painful”. I think that so many people are “On the Verge”. They are hearing the gospel of Jesus Christ, they are feeling the pull. I have seen the … Continue reading

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The Downside of Imperfection… And Then Up Again

The Downside of Imperfection… And Then Up Again

Let me tell you a little about a person you may know. She is anxious, tends to be lazy, procrastinates (a lot) , she is unorganized and if you look in the dictionary you will see her picture next to … Continue reading

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Heaven Bound

Heaven Bound

Here’s the deal! We all want to go to Heaven, I mean really who wouldn’t choose that if that had a choice. lol The issue is this world has confused us majorly about how to get there. We have been … Continue reading

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