Fiery Furnace

Fiery Furnace

As I prepare to write this, my palms are sweaty. God is moving, although I crave Him, I am scared to death. The store is closing and He is not wasting anytime, showing me what He wants me to do. … Continue reading

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What is stopping me?

My Book

What is stopping me? I have been here before. When (before I was saved) I would need to do something, and I would avoid it, like the plague. Examples you ask? Well, I did not want to get a job, until my mom laid the law down and said your grounded until you get a job. Ugghh finally, I got a job, because she forced me too. Then it was my drivers license, yup that thing that teenagers can’t wait to get their hands on, I wanted NO parts of. I would say “Mom, my friends drive, why do I need to drive?” Until you guessed it, she forced me to get a license. I was 18 years old. I held out as long as possible. Same with college. I declared to my poor mother, that I was going to be waitress for the rest of my life. Even though she supported me in all my decisions, she kept pushing me. All my friends went off to college and I was waitressing. Finally after I was engaged and my Fiancé convinced me, along with my mom that I could do it, I caved and enrolled. I graduated with an Associates degree and a 3.4 grade point average.

So, you see I am setting up a scenario here. I am for whatever reason “Afraid”.I'm the rock

The image above- I am the rock, the woman, my mom.

So, God has been laying on my heart to write a book. That is actually the whole reason, I have been writing the blog. I was dipping my toe in the water. Well, I have been dipping my toe in the water for almost a year now.

In the last two days, I have come upon 2 different people randomly that have written books. Both coming from a tougher standpoint than myself.

One is “Young” only 22 years old and she’s on her I don’t know 3rd book??! Also a fellow blogger who found Christ in Prison and has now given his life over to the Lord, and has submitted to God’s request to write a book, which is reaching many.

What is stopping me? Why am I afraid? I thought it was because of $$, but then how did these people do it? There must be a way.

I can feel God taking the place of my mom, pushing that big rock (me) saying, DO IT!

But, where do I start? I don’t know how to write a book. My grammar is horrendous. Do I turn my blog into a book? Do I write something new. Do I log all of the extraordinary moments?

I could cry. I have to pray. But, I thought I had been praying about it. Obviously not enough.
Is it obvious that I am literally fighting myself in handwritten form, right this very minute? lol

What is stopping me?

Sin that besets men, besets all men

Sin that besets men, besets all men

-The sin that besets men, besets all men.- Romans 7:15-25 “I don’t understand myself at all. For I really want to do what is right but I can’t. And I tend to do what I don’t want to do, the … Continue reading

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Holy, Holy, Holy

Holy, Holy, Holy

Often, I hear people say, “If God is a loving God, why would He send people to Hell”? Also, “I’m a “good person” and give to charities if God’s gonna send me to Hell for being a good person, well … Continue reading

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Crazy World

Crazy World

Is it just me ??? Or has the world gone just plain crazy??? I mean the headlines everyday are like a movie trailer. Now due to this blog being about faith, I would like to absolutely give a biblical standpoint … Continue reading

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Insecurity Slithers In

I know so far I have been laying the ground work for where my life is today, I know that my insecurity  is a gift from God . However, it is still uncomfortable and the thought of rejection is scary. Since I started this blog which was just a few short days ago, I have mentally gone back to that first day in the new school, where I am the “NEW” girl. I have that overwhelming feeling, will I be able to get them to like me? Will I fit in? I want to know all the dynamics of everyone’s relationships and where will I fit in? What will my niche be? Because I have to admit already doing this blog, it has a life of it’s own, in some weird way, it’s like I am seeing myself from a third person perspective. It’s both awesome and scary. I do believe God is cooking something up, and it’s not at all like I had envisioned it in my own mind. But, I trust him wholeheartedly and I just have to keep reminding myself that even though I am feeling uncertainty, He isn’t. He is the Absolute! The same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Thank you God for loving me, for trusting me, for believing in me. I can’t even imagine my life without your gentle hand guiding me.

The LORD Almighty has sworn, “Surely, as I have planned, so it will be, and as I have purposed, so it will stand.”  (Isaiah 14:24)