Are you Awake?

There are a TON let me say again a TON of people who are completely ignoring, writing off, nay saying, the impending collapse of our economic collapse. We don’t have to live in fear, but we do have to live aware and with unceasing prayer for mental and spiritual preparation.

Continue to pray.

Working in lending? Or swimming with sharks?

So, I started this new job, It was so overwhelming! My boss was a great boss and wanted all 5 of us in the office to do well, since such a big part of our pay came from sales. Unfortunately we are in this small town where real estate was definitely not booming. We were up against a huge district that were all larger towns and cities, it seemed like a no win situation to actually even keep up with the monthly goal of 260k per person.

Yet, our office continued to be successful. Not without catty fights between women, lots of crying, really big highs and really big lows. But in the midst of all that, again I was learning that what seemed an impossible situation was actually quiet possible; and successful. This job was definitely like swimming with sharks the nature of the business in general, and we all know how that panned out (2008, hint, hint). But, in the midst of all of that craziness we had formed a bond all of us women. And, even in the midst of this extremely stressful job we still were women with families and husbands and hearts. And I now had another person in my corner who believed in me when I didn’t, my manager Bella who was not only my boss but my friend.

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Here Goes!!

I have been tinkering over the idea of writing a book for about 2 years. 8 months ago I came up with a name for it, ” Extraordinary moments in a Ordinary Life”. All good in theory, but scary considering I have never been a scholar. But, nonetheless here I go!

When I was a child I had an experience that would change me forever. At 8 years old my Mom and “Dad” sat me down one night to talk to me. I couldn’t have imagined what was so serious, they began to to tell me in the best way that they could that the “Dad” that I had known was in fact not my Dad and that he loved me very much but that it was time that I know the truth. That there was a man that was my Dad but had decided to not be in my life for whatever reason, I don’t remeber the reasoning that was given. I was stunned beyond belief, it was a game changer. All of these feelings were flooding my mind, Who am I really? Why did my real father not want me? Would this father end up leaving me too? This was a definate defining moment in my life, I went from a confident child, to having an insecurity so deep in my soul that I felt that I was just not good enough, good enough for my “real” father, nor the father that I knew and ultimately throughout my life not good enough for just about anyone I came in contact with. It was a heavy burden and yes ultimately (like 6 months later) That Dad I had known and promised to never leave me, did just that. Fortunately, I had a mother that was wonderful, loving,encouraging, and believed in me ALWAYS even when I did not believe I was worth much. Consequently, I craved attention from everyone. We had moved around alot trying to get settled somewhere and I continued at every new school I would go to, to prove to all the “cool” kids that I was worthy of their friendship even though I was lacking most of the qualities they considered cool. Even though it was hard and I had times as a teenager of feeling really depressed, I had a drive in me to prove to everyone that I was Good enough. Little did I know that this drive was given to me for a reason, and that it was actually vitale to my future and the future of others.

Jeremiah 29:11 ” For I know the Plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” (NIV)