My faith journey has taken me many different places. As my soul desperately tries to fit in to the conformity of a “Christian life”, it just never quite works for me.Status quo has never suited my life any way (lol). Sometimes I allow the spirit of doubt take hold because the things I am either experiencing, understanding, or willing to walk into ( by the Lord’s calling) others don’t understand. Heck, sometimes I don’t understand it. Although I trust God implicitly and believe He is leading me, and that my discernment proves to serve me well, a gift I have been given and haven’t obtained by any of my own works but only through the grace of God.

I have often heard the word freedom in biblical expressions of Jesus Christ. I often wanted to understand that in the deeper sense but just couldn’t put my finger on it. I can understand it in the natural ” death has lost it’s sting” “eternity” but here….now?

I attend more than one church. I attend a Catholic Church steeped in tradition and regiment, rituals and submission to church authorities Christ being center but authority of church heads more importantly. I also attend a non denominational church, freedom is the name of the game. Christ only reigns. Submission to the crucified Christ, living a disciple life.

This past Friday I went to a worship service called the Oasis. 2 hours of worshipping God, freely, hand waving foot stomping praise, it was intense and the small venue was brimming with the Holy Spirit. I could see Jesus ( in my minds eye) walking amongst us with a flowing and glowing white gown, breathing in our praise and love for Him. As we sang, I could hearJesus beginning to speak to me. He asked me why I think I have to prove myself to Him? He said ” you are already approved, you are clothed in my righteousness.”” You are free. I love you and want you to walk in confidence and assurance that you are in me.” I started to weep quietly with my hands covering my face. Soon after this I felt a weight lifted from me, that I no longer had to prove myself to anyone. Later on in the worship, the worship leader felt lead to pray over people. I raised my hands with my eyes still closed. He came to me and laid his hands on my heAd and spoke these words, ” you are a chameleon a 007 of sorts, people may view you as confused but you are not.”

God was confirming to me, that my walk may not look like anyone else’s, but do not mistake He has called me to it. As I meditated on this at home this verse came to mind written by Paul to the Corinthians-

Paul a Servant to All
…21to those who are without law, as without law, though not being without the law of God but under the law of Christ, so that I might win those who are without law. 22To the weak I became weak, that I might win the weak; I have become all things to all men, so that I may by all means save some. 23I do all things for the sake of the gospel, so that I may become a fellow partaker of it.

Press In

Press in to the uncertainty, press in to the pain, press in to the unknown. Hold tight to the known and clothe yourself in His majesty and protection. I shall not fear, I shall not doubt. Is it a trick? Is the enemy also pressing in? Sure he is, he wants your soul. But, your soul has been bought by another. Will my willingness to walk off the cliff hurt those closest to me? A new fear to throw my way, but I press into it, I will not it allow it to control me. I will not fear. Pressing in with boldness, it is what most people say is irresponsible, they dare not step into something they don’t understand. Then who? Who will step in? Who will press in? Who will trust the one who purchased their soul at a very expensive price? Will they watch? Will they fear? Whom shall we fear says He? We should fear not and abide in His unfailing protection and grace. Who holds the key? Who holds the Law in their hands? Who is the law? The one the only. Protect me Oh Lord. As I walk through the fire, the burning fire. Lord hold my hand, ease my heart, soothe my breath. Why Lord,am I filled with this zeal? Why Lord does my heart long for you every moment of everyday? Did you not put this fiery zeal in me Lord? Am I not made with your hands? Have you not counted the hairs on my head? Bottled my tears? Lord, help me to stand, help me to fight, help me to see your plan, not mine. Let me be humble in heart, let not the world’s praises at pivotal moments blur my mission for a land far away. Strengthen my resolve, gird up my mind, renew it with only your will. I only want to sing your song, your melody, smell your fragrance. Lord I am yours for all time. I am pressing in~ 


I Love you more than the words in my brain can express

Today just praise! Love this song. Reflects exactly how I feel, how I love HIM, how HE consumes my thoughts, how I wish I could express to HIM, to you, to anyone and everyone how much I love and appreciate HIS presence in my life, how HE can turn my day around. How just when I want to give up, HE shows up.
Jamie Grace’s disposition also mirrors mine, Happy, Bubbly, and just plain enamored and in love!

From the Inside Out- Hillsong

Let the words reverberate your soul. His Love is everlasting. When all else fades, he will still remain. Will you allow him to consume you from the inside out?

The cry of my heart is to bring you praise from the inside out!

Let the music take you away, allow HIM to wrap you in his light.

God Bless!

This is the Air I Breathe—- Worshipping

I don’t know about you, but up until about a year ago I had NEVER taken the time to praise God. I mean don’t get me wrong I would give him a “Thank God”. But, mostly as I look at it now it was more of a slang without any meaning behind it.

I started to attend a church 2 x a month and they did everything differently. They sang music giving glory to God with a worship band. As I continued to go and learn the songs, I got lost in it.

It’s like hearing a song on the radio, that describes your heartbreak, or your joy, and you sing it at the top of your lungs because you are connecting to that song, your heart is connecting to that song, you know that feeling?? Don’t you??

Well, this is just like that but what you are connecting to is your love and gratitude for the Lord and all he has done for you, and continues to do for all of us. It is praising him.

Psalms 29:2 Ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name; worship the LORD in the splendor of holiness.

Psalms 95:6 Oh come, let us worship and bow down; let us kneel before the LORD, our Maker!

Psalms 99:5 Exalt the LORD our God; worship at his footstool! Holy is he!

When we worship it is being in his presence, it is refreshing your soul and allowing God and his glory to be your sole focus. It is just awesome. If you have never worshipped in this way, I highly suggest it.

1. Turn on a song that glorifies God, in your car, on your computer, headphones.

2. If your like me, you might be more conservative about that kind of “let yourself go” worship, so maybe do it in privacy.

3. Close your eyes, and listen to the words, contemplate the Lord and what he means to you, praise him for what he has done for you, feel his presence in your heart.

4. When you do this on a regular basis you will get more comfortable with it, and it will be easier for you to let go and allow your guard to be down, and let him consume you heart.

I have posted here a really good worship song, I will continue to post songs every couple of days, in case you do not know where to find good worship songs.

I pray you enjoy this song and learn to worship. You will not be sorry, and it will help you get too know the Lord on a more intimate level.

“My soul longs, yes, even faints for the courts of the Lord;
My heart and my flesh cry out for the living God.
Even the sparrow has found a home,
And the swallow a nest for herself where she may lay her young—
Even Your altars, O Lord of hosts,
My King and my God.
Blessed are those who dwell in Your house.” Psalm 84:2-4